It's definitely been a bit since I've been on here. Josh and I decided to take a break from "trying" and testing. We are in a boat, now, that we really can't rock since we are just trying to find a financial option for IVF. We understand that's our only option.
I do have to say, though, I haven't been this happy in a LONG time. I'm not questioning everything I put into my body. I'm not saying to myself "I'm ovulating!" and dragging Josh to the bedroom. I'm not having to stick a needle into my stomach every night. I'm just living life and it's wonderful! This weekend Josh and I laughed like we haven't laughed in a long time and it felt SOOO good. I told him how amazing I've been feeling and he said "Yes, it's nice to have the old you back." He explained he knew I was depressed and it was hard on both of us. It really was. I would cry over EVERYTHING. I was constantly sad and would force myself to have a good time. And now, I AM having a good time! This doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying and researching, I'm just making some time for Josh and I to regroup.
We will continue to live the life we're meant to have and be thankful for everything we do have right now. We are completely blessed to be where we are today and are so thankful for everything. <3
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