To sum it up, doc started talking about my Endometriosis. Yea, same reaction I had. I said to him "My WHAT?" He said, "You have Endometriosis. You didn't know?" I said "No! I didn't know that! No one told me this!" Doc proceeded to tell me that after they took my ovary, they detected the E word and the places it showed up were causing it to be damn near impossible for me to get pregnant. YET, they continued to have blood work drawn and never once mentioned they found this. I lost it. I came home and my mother in law talked with me for awhile and hugged me. Thank God she was there. I needed her so badly. I need her today again...
After all this happened, doc said he wanted to take my blood work again because it's been a year and he wants to do it himself. You can tell he doesn't trust the Florida docs and after all this I can't say I blame him. Sooo...My husband had his boss make sure our insurance would start in time for the blood work to be drawn. If you've followed my blog you know that the blood work has to be done at a certain time of month. Here's some TMI...It's Wednesday and I started yesterday so my blood HAS to be drawn tomorrow. I called to make the appointment and guess what...There's been a "misunderstanding" with the insurance. It won't start for a couple more weeks. So I can't have my blood drawn this month. Which means we have to wait another month.
Before you say "it's just one more month" keep in mind my journey. Keep in mind this is 3 years of waiting, and tears, and disappointment, and heart ache, and watching all my friends get pregnant with ease. Everyone BUT ME! Keep in mind I thought I would have two toddlers right now. Keep in mind it's one negative answer after another. Not ONCE have I received even one single piece of good news! Not once has someone said "we've found the answer!" Not once have I left a doc's office smiling.
So this is me today. Trying so hard to keep going.
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