Another day, another blood test. I get SO nervous when I have to push out my blood into a tube! 1) It hurts. They've taken enough vials from me now that I'm pretty sure they're making another Stephanie somewhere. and 2) What if this is the vial that gives me the news that...I can't even say it. So, we test again! I will call my doc after this go 'round and we'll make an appointment to go over the results and then FINALLY, MAYBE, she'll prescribe something to help me out! GAH! What a long road this has been and is still going. Maybe next time I will have some news that's worth telling. Until then ... SMILE! Chin up! Things happen for a reason. <3

UDPATE: I got my blood work done and immediately call my doctor to make an appointment to go over the results. Also, Josh was instructed to fax his semen analysis results to my doctor so she could see them. When I called my doc to schedule, I asked to make sure they received the semen analysis. Dr. Shimp's nurse called me back and the conversation went like this:

Nurse: These are over a year old.
Me: Yes, Dr. Shimp knows that. She just wanted me to fax the results so she could see them herself.
Nurse: But it says his doctor already went over the results with you guys.
Me: yes, he did. Dr. Shimp just wanted to see them herself.
Nurse: So I don't quite understand what you would like from us seeing the results.
Me: I'm not the one who requested they be sent. Dr Shimp wanted them. Ask her.
Nurse: ok honey. I guess I'll call you back after I see what she says.

GAAAHHHH!!!!! Just put me on the frackin Chlomid like I asked and be done with this bs!!! This frustration is running my life these days. I swear I could work in a gynecologist's office after all I've had to deal with. She wanted the results. I'm not the doctor. Don't ask ME what to do next!!! That's YOUR JOB! sigh..... I'm at my witt's end. Just keep smiling, I guess. Things happen for a reason....this reason may be me strangling my doctor's nurse.

UPDATE: The nurse called me back. There was some miscommunication between the receptionist and the nurse as to what was needed. Now that I've calmed down a bit....Doc went over Josh's semen analysis. His doc missed something and there is an issue with Josh's results. Now my doc wants Josh's test done again. AND to speak with me in person about it. I lost it. Called my sis and just cried for a long time while she listened. What if he can't give me a baby? What if natural impregnancy isn't possible? What if I will never see that beautiful smile of Josh's on a kid of our own or have to deal my stubborness in our little girl? Bad news always comes to me while I'm at work. It forces me to not dwell on the news, dry my eyes, and realize I can't do anything about it at this moment. I'll just have to proceed with my day. Until I get home and my world falls apart again.